I am not sure if anyone is aware of this, but….. Today is
one of the most precious of days. I woke
up this morning at 5.20am to a brisk Spring day, a temperature of around 3.5 degrees
(Celsius) and although it was still dark, dawn was just breaking and it’s
subtle lightness meant I didn’t have to turn on a light as I made my way to the
car.
When I got home and opened the door to my place (I am
currently sleeping at my in-laws) the house was again, light enough that I didn’t
need to turn on the lights. I stood
inside the door and reveled in the stillness (everything around me at the
moment is go, go, go) before I made my way to the bathroom to start getting
ready to start my day.
By the time I was ready to leave and as I walked out the
front door to the car, dawn had completely broken and the skies were that beautiful
cloudless shade of blue. There was still
a chill in the air but it did nothing to freeze out the warmth I felt just
turning my head toward the sky and feeling the sun on my face. What an amazing feeling.
Today, is one of those days for me that, no matter what is
happening, how sad I felt yesterday or may feel tomorrow, today I feel
amazing!
I am able to see that life is all around me, springing to
life again after the cold winter, waiting for me to start living it again. I feel that the darkness I have recently felt
and experienced is finally making its way to my past where it belongs, opening
my heart and my mind to my future; which is awfully good by the way. I am excited again. I am looking forward to getting out and going
for walks with my puppy (and of course my significant other half), I can see that
I have amazing opportunities in front of me that I couldn’t see before. Most
importantly of all though, is I know I am loved and can love through dark times. The love that has been sent to me literally
and virtually has helped me get through some really tough times.
So thank you everyone who has been there for me, thank you
for everyone who as wished me well, sent me messages of strength, pictures of
new babies and shared your family’s triumphant moments. Thank you for sharing your lives with me. You have enabled me to remember that I am not
alone and there is a world out there still revolving. You have reminded me that the sun is still
rising and setting and how new days are being born, lived and remembered as they become
yesterday.
I am totally in love with life today. Isn’t it amazing that because I have
experienced sorrow, that I can recognize and understand that today, tomorrow
and next week all have the possibility of making me happy, smile and glad to be
alive.
I think so!
