Okay, so I went to see a medium the other day. Some people may believe in them, some people may not, that's okay, what ever you believe is fine with me after all, who am I to judge. I have been to a few mediums over the years... I've met some that have totally floored me with their "insight" and others I have walked away from thinking that they may have been on some sort of hippy fluid that if I was that way inclined myself, I wouldn't mind trying at least once in my lifetime.
According to this latest medium, I was an elder from an Hawaiian background in a previous life. I was well loved and respected and supposedly, very wise and sort after for my "healing" abilities. I am supposedly off the charts when it comes to emotional intelligence but still a child when it comes to dealing with my own personal demons. She said I need to go back and find the inner child I left behind and bring it into today. Hmm, yeah, I see what she is saying, but I am sure that particular "insight" isn't exclusive to me.
My father, bless him, is evidently playing cards now - something he never did when he was alive...unless solitaire counts? He used to play that on the computer - A LOT!!! He wanted me to know that he is okay, that he is healing and that Mum is with him too and she is also doing fine. He told the medium to tell me he is sorry. Evidently he has a lot of regrets and now, in hindsight would love to come back to earth to live his life again and do things a little bit differently. Hey Dad!!! It was what it was, don't ever think you have to come back to do it all again. - I love you regardless.
She also told me that my relationship was secure and long lasting, that I am going to travel and see wonderful things in my life. I am well protected as I carry a lot of spirit with me. I have the ability to earn a living from my "hobby" and I have been told to do a short stories or creative writing course. She also told me to be wary of a couple of people (no she didn't name them) but she said that I
know who they are and where they are and that I absolutely know instinctively when to back down around these people. - For the record, I think I know who they are and if I am right, I only back down because I just can't be bothered with them, not because I fear them or that they intimidate me in anyway. Trust me, there is more to my life than what these people think they think or know of me.
She told me that I have to give and receive more. I have to concentrate on what I enjoy in life and make things happen around me. I am on the right track with my health and she said she could "see" that there had been and will continue to be, only good things to come with regard to my health. Whoo hooo.... chocolate bar, here I come. She also told me that she sees a move for me, an opportunity to move to somewhere near water (I currently live a 5 minute walk from a creek) and lots and lots of flowers. Honestly, I have no idea where these flowers are coming from but she said they are everywhere. Okay, I get it, there are lots of flowers... Just don't tell my black thumbs about the flowers, let them bloom in the spirit world I say, my thumbs on this plain, will kill them.
She believes I should paint. I told her, I would have to practice drawing straight lines first, because if my life depended on my drawing straight lines, I would be dead for sure. But, they say painting isn't about straight lines and it can be subjective, abstract, anything really, as long as the artist can interpret it into something that the artsy people of this world like and would buy. Please don't tell this to my Pictionary partner, because she would say that my picture of the Mona Lisa is definitely interpretive.... just not to anyone who actually needs to guess what it is I am drawing for the sake of the game.
The Medium said that I was going to be driving a new car, a red one at that. It was going to be sporty and that my Father is shaking his head at me because I will drive it too fast. I have always said that it isn't my fault the world is driving 5klms slower than I am and that being in front of everyone else on the road, means that I don't have to worry about what they are doing behind me. It definitely isn't my fault that the guy in the car next to me also feels that way and off we both go after the traffic lights change, in a cloud of burned rubber and red lined engine smoke to see who is first when the lane merges to one further down the road. I promise you that I only ever do this if there are no woman and children around... Mainly because some mummy drivers and some young "children" drivers (newbies to the driving world - hence I call them children) believe they are invincible on the road and who am I to prove them wrong. :) For the record, I don't have children and I am not a newbie driver so I don't fall into either of these categories. I think I fit rather well into the "mostly good, but sometimes do dumb things" driver category.
So, most of what she was telling me was pretty generic and nothing at all exclusive to me and I was sitting in front of this woman listening to what she was saying thinking, yeah.... I think you might not quite be the real deal here. Sure you are insightful, but.... you may just be good at reading people here and not necessarily talking to spirit.
But then......
Janeen, I keep seeing a beautiful, black and white cat laying on your pillow when you sleep and he is often curled up between your body and your keyboard when you sit at the computer. He is happy and he said to tell you that he is eating and peeing (yes you are reading that right) and that you don't have to worry about him. He is happy with the decision you made because it meant that he only ever knew happiness and never new what pain was. He said to tell you that if you had waited another few days he would have been in so much pain that he probably would have hurt you and lashed out at you. You definitely were his Mummy and he loved and loves you so much. For those that don't know, I had Mack my cat put down in August last year because he had developed renal failure. I had noticed that he wasn't eating and hadn't been to the toilet in over a week - among other things over the previous months, and made the decision to put him to eternal sleep rather than see him suffer through his illness and die a slow and inevitable painful death. There is absolutely no-way on this living plain that this woman would have know this. Trust Me.
And then....
Janeen, there is a young man present who says he knows your partner. He wants you to pass on to your partner that he is sorry he didn't go to him and he is sorry that he chose to kill himself rather than seek help. Please tell your partner that he is healing on the other side, he is learning to live so that when he is ready to return, he won't make the same decision again. But please tell you partner, his friend is doing okay, and that he loves him.
I spoke to Steve about this when I got home, and yes, there was a friend of his that committed suicide though I had never met him... and what he asked me to pass on to Steve, was exactly what Steve had said he often thought about when he thought of this friend.
After I drew three angel cards, all of them very relevant to me at the time, there were several other things that the medium and I spoke about, all of them equally poignant but for my ears only. She was more than she appeared to be at first. Even if there were no earth shattering revelations for me and there isn't any life change questions I needed answers to I am glad that I went to speak with her. That she was able to see my Dad who passed in July last year and Mack who passed in August last year, at this time in my life, fills me with warmth.
I am somewhat more at ease with my decision about Mack, though I miss him desperately and most likely will for a long time to come. I know I can't go back in time and change anything, everything that has been done is past now and can't be changed. I find speaking to the spirits around me through a medium makes a nice change to just speaking to the "empty" room I am standing in.
I do believe I am a believer of this Medium and that this one may have something there that I will explore more in the future...
Or not!
© Janeen Hayes 2016
